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Is My Marriage on A Road to Nowhere?
(Attempting) to heal after infidelity
Trust can take years to build, but only a second to break. ~unknown
My husband is on his way home from work. I am happy, nervous, excited, angry… probably a few other emotions as well.
My husband is my best friend (aside from my dog). I’ve never felt closer to anyone, been cheered on or challenged the way he does. And, right now, I’m mad as hell at him for that.
If I decide we can’t rebuild or, rather, I guess I should be saying if we can’t build a new foundation for our broken marriage, I will lose not only the love of my life, but the best friend I’ve ever had.
That pisses me off.
His betrayals and stupidity piss me off.
My desire to stay pisses me off.
My urge to run pisses me off as well.
So (for now?) I stay here, married to my best friend — delighting in and dreading his return home.
Hoping and praying and fighting like hell for our family, our life together.
So (for now?) I stay here, married to my best friend — delighting in and dreading his return home.
But will it work?
