I’ve Gone Back To Work… So Far My Disabled Body Is NOT Adjusting

It’s only 20hrs a week for crying out loud!

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I just read Work is a Chronic Illness by Devon Price.

I had forgotten for a while that I am so profoundly disabled, because I have been able to build a life around my natural rhythms and my inarguable sensitivities. — Devon Price

This resonates with me painfully so this evening.

You see, after so, so much effort on my part, I’d been doing better these past six months or so. Like, I was able to go to PT and begin rebuilding muscle and strength/stamina. I was able to get back into cooking from scratch and baking. I was able to spend the day selling at artists markets the past few months.

I was so grateful to feel stronger, to be able to do things without paying for it for weeks.

Please don’t get me wrong, I still had to manage my energy output vs. resting, but it was manageable. It felt sustainable.

So, after years away from in-office working, I started a 20hr a week position at the beginning of November.

I only applied for the job because I’d been doing so much better recently that I genuinely thought…