My Hottest Sex is After Infidelity?!?
I am struggling to accept what is my wonderful reality.
Is it ‘normal’ to end up having the hottest sex in the relationship history while doing deep healing work after infidelity?…
In many ways it makes a lot of sense that two people who have wounded and been wounded by each other so profoundly AND who have spent well over a year in intensively healing work would find their way into the most intimate intimacy they’ve ever known… but, still… sometimes I gaslight myself these past few weeks or so… how can ‘it’ be so good right now, when finding out about his actions was the straw that caused this camels’ breakdown?…
I wish more people wrote about healing after infidelity… I want to read their work, I want to feel less alone in this landscape of healing.
Because, I am a 48 year old woman having the absolute hottest, most multi-orgasmic sex of my life 18 months after our marriage imploded because of infidelity…
Maybe if my first forty years weren’t saturated with gaslighting abusers I would find this easier to accept and embrace…
Hell, I want to celebrate this, but I’m afraid to let my guard down.
And yet, this past couple of months have blown away what I thought was ‘good/great sex’….
It almost, but not really, feels like having a marital crisis and mental/emotional breakdown might have been worth it…
And that feels like a blasphemous thing for a feminist to even ponder.
Thank you for reading.❤
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