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Why I Blame My Toxic Narcissist Mother For My Chronic Illnesses
Because its at least partially her damn fault

“The profound discovery was that our patients with four or more ACEs were twice as likely to be overweight or obese and 32.6 times as likely to have been diagnosed with learning and behavioral problems.”
― Nadine Burke Harris
My mother’s ongoing abuse and neglect throughout my childhood more than likely what made me chronically ill.
And that blows my mind because it feels so fucking unfair.
That here I am, 50 years old, living my healthiest life, eating 80–90% whole foods made from scratch, practicing gratitude and mindfulness, drinking enough water, going to therapy, etc., and the best I can likely hope for is to halt the progression of my illnesses.
Like, why does she get the final say?!?
It isn’t fair and it pisses me off.
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If what I’ve said feels shocking or confusing to read, I get that.
When I learned about ACE’s, or Adverse Childhood Experiences, and the profound impact they can have over the lifespan of a person, well at first I…